Posted by annierose on January 16, 2006, at 10:46:30
In reply to Re: Anger continued ... » fairywings, posted by annierose on January 16, 2006, at 6:21:48
I was really full of all sorts of emotions today. I began the session by going over why I was hurt regarding Tuesday's session and adding the new stuff re: Thursday's session, appearing to be BUMPED.
T: When clients come more than once a week, it's important to their therapy that the frequency continues. Sometimes, people's work or school schedule changes so their session time needs to change. That is what happened with Thursday.
Me: So I was bumped. Now I'm really angry.
T: No, I asked you if you were able to come at a different time.
Me: No, it wasn't presented as a choice. You said, "My schedule is changing at the beginning of the year, are you able to come at this time?"
T: If you weren't able to change, I wasn't going to take away your appointment time.
Me:
That's not what you said. I guess I'm the disposable client. You feel you can just move my time around and in Tuesday's case, not even write it down or remember it. Like I don't matter. I don't even want to come on that Thursday appointment now. Just cancel that session.T: I can see why you feel so hurt. But you are not disposable. Your feelings are so intense around this issue because that is how you felt with your family, like you didn't matter, your needs were not important
Me: Oh, isn't that convenient. Instead of owning your responsilbility, just blame everything on my past.
T: I did make a mistake. I'm sorry. Try to understand if your work schedule changed, I would do the same for you.
That pretty much sums up this session. I'm still so angry. I do understand what she is saying, but the bottom line is that I was bumped for someone else. It wasn't presented as a choice, that much I'm 100% certain of. And now, she is "working on the Tuesday conflict".All of it s*cks. And I hate her right now. And I don't want to go tomorrow. I feel I need time to process this session. I'll just sit in silence tomorrow and that will feel just worse.
I know this isn't such a big deal. But it feels that way.
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