Posted by annierose on January 13, 2006, at 16:00:29
Daisy had started a post above about anger in therapy. I had shared within that thread some anger directed at my T last Friday. Well Friday must be "anger" day for me.
Background: My T needed to change my regular Thursday appointment time to an earlier time. I mentioned that I was thinking of changing my Thursdays to Tuesdays, and did she have a regular appointment slot open on Tuesdays? She gave me a time and I told her at our next appointment that I indeed wanted to change. So this week began our new schedule.
She began today's session saying she had me down for 2 different times on a certain Tuesday. It's too hard to explain, but in the end of this discussion she shook her head and said, "I don't have that down anywhere." I took that to mean, "I don't remember you changing your appointment days." I tried to jar her memory and she replied, "Well, that time will only be available until February." And discussion was ended.
I couldn't speak during most of the appointment today. I was so MAD, ANGRY that how could she make such a huge mistake. I was left with the impression that in 2 weeks, there was no time slot for me. And on top of that, I had already given up my Thursday slot. I kept wanting to bring this up, but the words would not come out. I sat there in silence. At first, the silence was full of rage. Then a few firetrucks went by, a police car or two, then her phone rang --- TWICE -- and the silence continued. Then I just submitted myself to the silence and relaxed (briefly).
Near the end of our silent session, she asked what was interferring with me sharing my thoughts today. Nothing came out. I left full of fury. On my drive to work, I thought to myself, what would my babble friends tell me to do. Call her.
So after I got settled at work and had my day under control, I did call. And she answered (never expecting that). I went through all our conversations on this matter. She said she did remember that I changed times, but "I had written the change down in one place but not another. It's my conflict and I need to figure this out." She continued that she wished I would have brought this up during our session.
I'm still mad. I really liked my new appointment time on Tuesdays. In fact, I wanted to tell her today how much I liked our new schedule. And now, it's all up in the air.
Aren't our therapist supposed to be perfect?
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