Posted by happyflower on December 11, 2005, at 22:31:18
In reply to Re: More sh*t, more abuse triggers puke trigger, posted by happyflower on December 11, 2005, at 22:09:06
All I ever wanted in my life as a child was to be held and loved and wanted. I wanted to be told I was loved. I craved attention I never got. I was scared of being alone with her.
As a child I used to get up before my mother, make me a lunch and hide out in the woods until my dad came home. I had a great hide out, all kinds of junk I found. I would read all day, even in thunderstorms. I wasn't scared of the lightening, I was more scared of being in the same house as my mom. When my dad came home I silently ate my dinner, did the dishes and went to bed. I hated summers, I liked it better when school was in session, so I didn't have to hide so much. It got very cold out in the woods in the winter. But I didn't care, luckly my dad got off work a couple of hours after I got home from school. I had it hard as a kid, how I survived I have no idea.
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