Posted by B2chica on September 30, 2005, at 11:49:13
just reread my above post. i sound kind of out of it.
guess i'm feeling that way too.
...i'm scared of myself...i just want help. this day can't go fast enough, see pdoc tonight at 6:00.what do you do when typical distractions don't work. i've tried treadmill, diving into work, journaling, painting. mostly i can't concentrate on any of them. i don't want S. but i can't stop thinking about it.
i have so many emotions about what happened. mostly i'm scared. i wish you babblers could make a big circle and i could just hide in the middle for a while.i Hate the word Trauma. they keep saying that. i don't feel like what i went through was trauma. i think of trauma as a witness to a murder, being violently r@ped, living in a war zone, growing up around violent alcoholics.
i feel i don't deserve the term survivor and i especially hate the word victim.can anyone relate?
b2c.
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