Posted by muffled on September 30, 2005, at 14:30:58
In reply to circle of babble....'trauma' term, posted by B2chica on September 30, 2005, at 11:49:13
> just reread my above post. i sound kind of out of it.
> guess i'm feeling that way too.
> ...i'm scared of myself...i just want help. this day can't go fast enough, see pdoc tonight at 6:00.I scare myself sometimes too.
>
> what do you do when typical distractions don't work. i've tried treadmill, diving into work, journaling, painting. mostly i can't concentrate on any of them. i don't want S. but i can't stop thinking about it.I still think on it sometimes, but I'm lucky. I'm pretty sure I'd never do it on purpose. More like accidentally on purpose. I don't REALLY think I'd do it though. I don't REALLY wanto die. I just want a break.
> i have so many emotions about what happened. mostly i'm scared. i wish you babblers could make a big circle and i could just hide in the middle for a while.
I'll circle around for you.
>
> i Hate the word Trauma. they keep saying that. i don't feel like what i went through was trauma. i think of trauma as a witness to a murder, being violently r@ped, living in a war zone, growing up around violent alcoholics.
> i feel i don't deserve the term survivor and i especially hate the word victim.
>
> can anyone relate?
> b2c.I don't get that word either. Trauma for one is just a blip in life for another. I don't remember any 'trauma' yet I have the signs. My H. had a very strange upbringing and he's like so together. Go figger?
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