Posted by kerria on September 17, 2005, at 21:34:59
In reply to Re: T says he's sorry. That's all :( » kerria, posted by terrics on September 17, 2005, at 21:19:08
my T only has treated trauma disorders. i'm not a disorder anyways. If one person could just understand what it was like to have my problems maybe he or she could help me know how to get better.
Right now everything is a confusing mess and no amount of trying to do better could help. The problem is that there isn't a 'host' part or a leader in me anymore. There wasn't before i knew that i had DID either but now it's harder because we know about switching. Five years ago we just were different for each place or relationship like at home and work and school and hiking club.
Being inpatient is the worst for me because i have nothing to ground to - there is no 'hospital part ' so there's 'no one to be' there . Whenever i'm away from everything like that i fall apart . i have to bring things to ground me and think about my family, work, and hiking, etc, and hope the part comes so i know what i am.
so frustrated . no one will try and understand that trying to do better doesn't help:(
no one's in charge - not because they won't but because we can't.
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