Posted by fairywings on September 18, 2005, at 6:57:15
In reply to Re: T says he's sorry. That's all :( » JenStar, posted by kerria on September 17, 2005, at 18:38:51
> JenStar how could you misunderstand so much?
what i heard is that you said it was a terrible match, and it is, you've admitted it so many times, but you've said you can't/won't find another T. everyone has encouraged you to get away from this T. he sounds like a beast, or it's your interpretation that he is. either way, he sounds very uncaring, and frankly a masters isn't that high a level of education to be an expert. maybe he is, i don't know, i'd be looking for a very kind, caring, person, with at least a masters, possibly a PhD.
You've also said that before therapy you were a student with a 3.8, and went camping every weekend, and were doing well. it seems to me that either this T has made you very ill, or you've regressed, or you've allowed yourself to become ill, or you have gotten worse. only you know the answer to that, and i'm not trying to pick on you, i'm just saying i guess is it's that it's one of those things.
i think that you've developed a very unhealthy attachment to this guy, you feel that you can't leave him, and he's manipulated you into believing that. after all if he's being paid 100% by ins. he has plenty of incentive to keep you on. i think the letter, cutting you off as a patient was meant as a threat, either you come back, or you're gone! i don't know, that's just my guess. i think he knows how threatened you'd feel by that. my guess is a good T, a caring T wouldn't do that.
i'm sorry your family won't help you, i'm sorry you're not up to calling. it does sound like you are very overwhelmed by life right now, and it sounds like this T has done you no favors kerria. one day i hope you can see that, admit it to yourself, and get out from under his thumb by choice.
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