Posted by Dinah on August 24, 2005, at 20:44:10
In reply to Re: I remember now, posted by alexandra_k on August 24, 2005, at 20:32:07
I've lost everyone, aside from my son, who is really important to emotional me.
I've lost Bunty, I've lost Harry, I've lost Daddy. I've lost one best friend to death, another to moving. If I get better and don't need him I'll lose the last thing that's important to me. If I even need him less or with less intensity, I'll be losing the last thing that's important to me.
I adored Bunty till the day she died. And I adored Harry till the day he died. And I adored Daddy till the day he died, even though I also hated that he hurt me. I adored them fiercely and without reserve. Adoring is important to me. Way more important than being adored. I just can't lose this.
poster:Dinah
thread:543244
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