Posted by shrinking violet on June 27, 2005, at 18:23:45
In reply to Re: confused, sad (((((hugs)))))), posted by Jazzed on June 26, 2005, at 22:36:52
>> "I'm so sorry that you're feeling so alone and sad. It's really interesting that you felt your T's pain so strongly, and that she started to share things, but then backed off. Maybe there is something there that she felt she had in common, maybe it was so painful not to be able to tell you. I'm so sorry that you were abandoned, and you were left feeling so empty, and so much unfinished."
--Thank you for understanding, I appreciate it. I think her role as a T got in the way...Obviously her career means a lot to her, and she wouldn't jeopardize it in any way, nor would I want her to. And she's very aware of ethics, etc. I just wish we had had those sorts of discussions, about our feelings for the other, etc, and why we can never see or hear from each other again just b/c of how we met. There are no laws concerning these issues, only guidelines. And I would have liked to have that dialogue with her, and maybe we could have come to some sort of mutual agreement or understanding. At the very least, the ending wouldn't have played out like we were saying goodbye to someone we met the day before, which is what it felt like to me since we both closed off during the last session; that in itself is very hard to think about.
>> "I think, and I could be wrong, that some T's and psychaitrists pick their field because of something in themselves, or someone close to them, that they are trying to resolve. My 2nd psychiatrist was so awesome, like a brother to me. He shared some stuff with me, and toward the end of my therapy, I asked him what drew him to psychiatry. He told me his mom was schizophrenic, and that every day when he was growing up he would come home from school, and she would have been drinking all day. He would try to help her, and hide all the bottles b4 his dad got home from work. That's why he chose it, but I think sometimes it has to be about their own personal stuff. Maybe it was that way for your T."--True. Personal issues probably play a lot in what career someone chooses. My T did tell me a bit of her reasonings for going into this profession, which I won't share here due to privacy concerns, etc.
>> "I hope you start to feel better, and that your sister and her friend are good companions for you."
--Thanks. It's still hard so far, but hopefully it's a temporary situation.
--Thank you,
--sv
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