Posted by shrinking violet on June 27, 2005, at 18:16:44
In reply to Re: confused, sad » shrinking violet, posted by annierose on June 26, 2005, at 21:26:03
>> "I hope living with your sister provides you with some comfort. One of my sisters is very maternal, and when I had my children, she took extremely good care of me. It's okay to let someone help carry the burden."
--Thanks. My family isn't like that though and my sister, while she has a lot of good qualities, is definitely not maternal, at least not in a sisterly sort of way (she's pretty good with pets, I guess *lol*). In our family, we don't talk about stuff, or let others "in" on what's going on inside. So, it would feel too awkward and weird for her to be privy to any of that information, which is very personal and private to me anyway. I'm glad your sister was helpful to you, though.
>>"I remember you posting about a residental treatment center a few weeks ago. What happened with that? I thought that sounded promising."
-- Wow, I'm impressed by your memory! Yes, I did go for the assessment a couple of weeks ago and am waiting to hear if they'll admit me (it's a private facility and they only admit 9 patients at a time, so they have to "pick and choose"). I'm scared either way.
>>"I once had an abrupt termination with a T (years ago, by my own doing). I remember how difficult it can be to keep wondering, "if only ...." "I wonder if she ...." I'm not sure those thoughts are helpful unless you are mulling over them with another professional who can help you process these emotions."
--First, I'm sorry for your experience.
--When I went for the assessment, I met with the clinical director. I liked him right off, and while telling him of the usual history information new providers take, we also discussed my "team" and my T, and I let slip how our termination was hard for me, I feel like I've been dropped and cut off and my guilt/blame for causing that, etc etc. He understood right away, said it must be very painful for me, and it sounds like I need some closure with her. He said he'd bring it up to her and/or my psych, if he spoke with any of them (I signed releases for the treatment center to do so), but I have no way of knowing if he did, or will (again, it probably depends on whether they'll accept me as a patient first). And even so, I doubt any of them would agree to see me again, for any reason.--Thank you for your thoughts,
--sv
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