Posted by gardenergirl on June 25, 2005, at 23:39:45
Hi everyone. My T has never really said much about Babble, although since I went to Chicago, he seems to be more aware of my particpation (but not the name, thank goodness.)
At any rate, he recently said that although he thinks y'all sound very supportive and he can see how that is helpful, he thought that posting about my therapy and receiving replies "bleeds off the transference."
What do you think? I can understand what he means on one hand. By posting about the big blowup session we had, it helped me deal with the emotional turmoil until I saw him again. So I was calmer, although still emotional when I talked to him about it. Otherwise, I would have continued to be an absolute mess for a whole week, maybe even decompensated a bit (you could say I did anyway), and hence he would have been witness to the intensity of my emotions as they were versus me describing them.
On the other hand, I think it's valuable to share experiences and to have them normalized or to get others' observations. I can think of an IM recently with Daisy that really helped me to understand in a deeper way what's going on with me right now.
Aaarrrggghhh! I want to be the good client. I want to get the most out of my therapy. But I don't want to avoid posting about my own experiences here if I want to. For example, I had an intense and meaningful dream last night, and I kind of want to share it, but I kind of also want to "experiment" by not talking about it before I see him on Wednesday.
Thoughts?
gg
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