Posted by cricket on June 21, 2005, at 10:51:56
In reply to Not Wanting to See T again., posted by cricket on June 20, 2005, at 12:24:09
Thanks everyone for responding. I really appreciate all the support.
I am always 10 mintues late. In fact, he's gotten so used to it that his prior client always leaves 10 minutes late. And as soon as my therapist tells me I can go (sometimes we can only stand 30 minutes), I spring up like a jack rabbit and run (quite literally) down his stairs.
I wish he could make more of a joke of my dread of therapy. But sometimes he gets defensive. This is not junior high school detention, he says.
And he's quite right to get defensive sometimes. I've spent whole sessions just giving one word answers at best. I look out the window. I tell him that I have no intention of spending any of my spare time thinking about him or therapy. So he crosses his arms up high on his chest and scowls at me.
I always make sure to tell him the dreams which I am sure he will interpret as him doing his job poorly. I've had dreams where he's blind, others where he's reading the newspaper as my arm is being cut off, another where his office turned into a stage, he was the stage director and I had to perform, another where he had no sole on his shoe. I might not tell him much but I always tell him these dreams.
What the h*** perhaps my purpose in life is to break down his ego. It's quite big enough to stand some assault on my part.
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