Posted by Jazzed on June 20, 2005, at 16:55:59
In reply to Not Wanting to See T again., posted by cricket on June 20, 2005, at 12:24:09
> But then I get close to my weekly appointment and this terrible dread sets in. I don't want to see him. I don't want to talk to him. I practically have to sit on my hands all day so I don't call and cancel.I'm so sorry that you feel that way. Is there anything about your T that makes you feel this way? What kind of T could you work with that wouldn't make you feel this way? You're every bit as worthy as anyone else to be there, and I'm sure your T feels you're worthy.
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> I know it has something to do with shame. At least that's the feeling I get. I feel like so much less than he is that I can barely stand to think of myself in his presence.I'm so sorry, this sounds like it feels horrible.
I know it doesn't help for me to say that the T's have heard it all and seen it all. You're as worthy as anyone else, and you need a T just as badly as anyone else who's there.>
> Has anyone else ever felt this dread? How did it ever get better, and how many years did it take?
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I haven't been to therapy in years, until recently, but when I was a teen-ager in therapy, I felt somewhat this way. I didn't feel like I was worth his time, even though he tried to be very kind to me. I regressed into my shell and got worse. It took a wonderful new T, and some therapy to get over the 1st T. The T I have now, just started with him, is not handsome or well dressed or anything like that. Maybe he does that on purpose to make ppl comfortable.Jazzy
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