Posted by pinkeye on June 9, 2005, at 19:37:19
In reply to Re: My thereapist asked me to read this today as well » pinkeye, posted by Tamar on June 9, 2005, at 19:13:01
Thanks Tamar. Your post is very validating.
Only now I have realized that this has been the main cause of my depressive attitude all along and self loathing. I wonder how long it will take for me to recover from it - if ever. And for all this I know my father is innocent.
And it is true about the cultural thing also. But I guess it doesn't apply to kids when they go thorugh it in any culture. Atleast that much sense people have. But when we talk about it as adults, I wonder if people would say, "So what - Everybody goes through it" kind of dismissing. Actually now I regret even telling my ex T about it. He didn't reply to my mail, and it has made me more ashamed of it. I keep feeling he would blame me for this as well. He was the first men that I told this to, and the response wasn't that great.
My current T keeps saying that I am trying to minimize it. But it is incredibly hard for me to blame my dad, especially when I think he was innocent deep down. She highly suspects it though. Especially since my mother's father had tried telling my father several times not to touch a girl child all the time and stuff like that.
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