Posted by shrinking violet on May 20, 2005, at 19:55:14
In reply to Re: i wore her out » shrinking violet, posted by Jazzed on May 20, 2005, at 18:10:01
>>" I'm so sorry that you're T reacted the way she did. IF indeed she has withdrawn because of the reasons you stated then that isn't very professional, but I've been reading all the books available on therapy and transference/countertransference from Amazon, and I think there could be some other things going on. I think sometimes if you're going into a facility, the T pulls back to allow you to make a better transition. OR, the T might have felt overwhelmed by your feelings, or maybe by her own."
--Hi Jazzed . Thank you. I hope you're right....I'm sure there must be some reasoning for what's going on, given everything we've gone through together. I just hope it's a good and valid reason, and nothing "wrong" that I might have done.
>>"I think that if you would send her a letter...."--You know, I'm thinking of sending her a card and a short note telling her how things turn out (once I find out whether or not I get into this place, and what the plans are) and how, even though she wasn't physically here, how much a part of this she has been, and how I'm going to bring her with me, etc, and tell her I hope that I didn't overwhelm her or do/say anythiing I shouldn't have, etc. I've been trying to put myself in her place: how would I feel if a client I've worked with for almost 2 years, two years of struggling and resistance and tireless effort and tears and hugs and caring, that client accepts help only after she has left treatment with me? I don't think I'd feel very good. I don't think she realizes how much a part and a cause of this whole process she has been, and maybe I needed her to let me go so I could find my own way, or at least make the effort. I hope to tell her soon. And I hope our paths meet again.....I can't believe that God (or Fate, or the Universe) would have led me to HER, and caused us to go through everything we have together, and the deep way we feel about each other, only to have it end forever this way. I can't believe that....There has to be more to this story than that. Maybe this is just an intermission.....
Thank you, I appreciate your thoughts.
sv
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