Posted by Dinah on May 18, 2005, at 20:04:29
In reply to Re: it's not unreasonable » Dinah, posted by sunny10 on May 18, 2005, at 11:43:35
I dunno. I can still remember every freckle on Bounty's little tiny front foot. How her back felt under my hand.
Yet I'm already losing my father and Harry.
The difference is that I clung tightly to the pain last time, while this time I have therapy that may be keeping me from doing that. Every love song made me cry for two years with Bounty. For years after that, not a day went by when I didn't see her tiny body fall and remember my horror when she didn't bounce back up. That last desperate ride to the vets.
I don't want to lose those freckles. I don't want to lose a single mole of my father's. I don't even want to forget him saying grossly inappropriate things to my son. I want to keep him close. I want to keep Harry close.
I hate loss with every fiber of my being. I don't want any more. I don't even want to lose what I've already lost.
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