Posted by shrinking violet on May 16, 2005, at 14:00:24
In reply to You are as worthy as everyone around you are » shrinking violet, posted by pinkeye on May 16, 2005, at 13:46:57
>> Whenver you start doubting yourself, think that each of us is responsible for who we ended up to be only 25 %. The rest >>75 % was given to us or forced upon us. And nobody really deserves or not deserve anything they get in life. People who >>are millionaires, people who are happy, people who are extremely beautiful - how do you know if they deserved it?
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>> If they can have a good life, so can you. You are as worthy of everything as everyone around you in this whole planet is >>(except for people who really do real bad things to other people voluntarily - like serial killers etc). It took me a long time >>to understand this. But I understood it only recently.. I figured if I am to be guilty, then so is everyone around me.. If I am >>to be unworthy, then so is everyone around me.--Hi Pinkeye, Thank you.
My psych, T, etc (and anyone else who thinks they know me and knows how I really feel....not many) keep trying to convince me that I'm "deserving" of good things.
But...they don't know me. No one does. It's easy to tell someone who you think is a decent person this, to reassure them, but you can't see into people's hearts. I *have* done things, really crappy just-plain-wrong things.....I've never murdered or abused anyone, and I do my best to save insects I find in the house rather than smash them flat....But still, I'm NOT a good person. I'm not. And if you knew it all, then you'd agree too. My T, she's a good person, "good" in the most pure form of the word. I am the opposite. I just need to figure out if the past 10+ years of stuff I've had to cope with is enough punishment. I'm not sure.
[and thanks for making the effort to try to convince me....not an easy task ;-) ]
Take care,
sv
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