Posted by shrinking violet on May 18, 2005, at 14:10:48
In reply to i need her right now, posted by shrinking violet on May 17, 2005, at 19:41:10
I'm sorry....I feel like I'm beating a dead fish with this post. I hate to sound so whiny and needy.
I ended up leaving a desperate voicemail on my T's office phone late last night.
She called this morning, thankfully, but.....She sounds different. She's pulled everything right back in, it's almost as if she doesn't know me, or the past 2 years have been erased from her mind.
How do they do that?
How CAN they do that?I guess she doesn't realize how traumatizing and devastating this is for me.
Or maybe it doesn't matter.
Or maybe it's my fault, that *I* should handle it better, and if I can't, it's my problem.I hate therapy.
I'm sorry, but it's ridiculous. I think if someone were to really study it, they would find it does more harm than good. I don't think true therapy is possible between humans.How can she just cut me off like this, leave me dangling like a dead fish on a lure?
I'm supposed to call the treatment center, then call her back. But I'm afraid to.....What if she says, "Ok, good, well, goodbye."
I couldn't take that again.
:-(
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