Posted by shrinking violet on May 16, 2005, at 8:18:14
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my t...i failed her.....i failed her so very badly. And maybe myself too, but her the most. I feel like I'm being shredded from the inside out, and I'm not sure where to put it all (....I guess most of it ends up here, I'm sorry for that).God, Fate, the Universe.....whatever "Else" is out there.....It can't be that cruel, can it? To have struggled through almost two years with her, which were probably as equally if not more difficult and profound and meaningful to her as they were to me....and then have it had ended the way it did, with a wet fizzle.....This can't be it, can it? There has to be more to this story, there has to be.
I have to do it for her. Even if she never finds out about it, or never knows how it turns out.
Maybe then I can fix some of this. Maybe then I would have honored her and our work together, finally.
Maybe...
poster:shrinking violet
thread:498415
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20050513/msgs/498415.html