Posted by thewrite1 on May 2, 2005, at 16:04:31
In reply to Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something, posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 12:19:12
I was thinking about posting about this, but it's kind of a tough subject. I probably wouldn't have had this thread not come up.
I had a dream last week that I was with my T. Everything was pretty innocent and then it wasn't. Things became sexual. As soon as I touched her and felt her wetness, a sense of peace washed over me. Not in a sexual way, but rather feeling welcomed and accepted. I woke up thinking, "What the heck?"
All I could picture was her vagina. So the way my mind works, I immediately wanted to go the opposite way. I pictured a penis and my first reaction was fear. I was afraid. Perhaps this is why I haven't had sex with my husband in three months.
I've talked to my T about this (being glad we're only doing phone sessions at this time), and she was wonderful about it as usual. She goes off the theory that we are every part of our dreams, so basically according to her, I was just telling myself that I'm okay.
Now this matter about the penis is another entirely. She's given me a homework assignment in which I write out all the reasons why I'm feeling resentment toward my husband. I've started it, but I don't think I'm done with it yet. I'm not sure I could ever make it complete. There's some real intense things going on there.
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