Posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 12:19:12
I think I'm not going to be able to talk to my therapist about this because he just doesn't understand, and I don't have the words to make him understand and my head hurts so from the pressure that i just want to explode or something. can i get a female therapist just to translate? will a female therapist understand?
I'm scared of female genitalia. Not girl's, but women's. I mostly know the bad names for it, not the right ones. I keep trying to explain to him that i don't have that, at least not the kind a woman has. I just don't. And that means so many things to me that they just press in on my head and bounce off and i can't grab them and i can't find any more words than that. i'm almost positive it's symbolic but maybe it's not and in either case he just doesn't understand what i mean when i say i don't have that and i don't think he ever will understand.
he keeps getting sidetracked by wanting me to use words for it, and that's just not the point and my head hurts so much just thinking about it and it was hard to tell him and he'll never understand and it's not fair.
poster:Dinah
thread:492656
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