Posted by Daisym on May 1, 2005, at 14:59:36
In reply to Re: I wish things weren't so hard, posted by gardenergirl on May 1, 2005, at 11:55:16
Thanks GG. I'll try to think about it this way. Oxygen for me first so I can continue helping the rest of them. Hard though...
I've decided this is the definate draw back to being so competent and in control. The docs think I can handle anything. And usually I can. So they are turning to me to take care of it all. And so is everyone else. And I want to run screaming into the street saying, "does no one remember that less than a month ago I was so suicidal that I was being intensely watched over?!" I'm worried this will send me back to that spot. But some other part of me steps up and says, "no, you are at your best in a crisis. It is a month from now that you'll crash."
I'm over thinking things again. Worrying about what hasn't happened yet. I need to stop isolating as this is what I tend to do when I don't talk it out. Knowing this and doing something about it are very different though.
...you are right. I need to talk to him about all this.
Thanks for the reminder.
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