Posted by Susan47 on March 21, 2005, at 11:34:36
In reply to one more p.s., posted by LG04 on March 21, 2005, at 9:31:04
Your posts just sent me into such a paroxysm of tears don't feel bad about that though because it's my own issue but so much like yours... I don't know, I think you're lucky your T is telling you how she feels and the reasons she's not available... I guess my feelings drove my T crazy and eventually he just wasn't available but no reasons were ever given as to why.. he laid it on me, saying I asked him to terminate me.. which is true but when I asked him to take me back, he refused ... and that was very very damaging painful, hurtful, and because he's a man he would never ever discuss my effect on him, if I ever had one .... I phoned my ex-T's machine and yelled that he shouldn't have let me terminate, I HURT myself so much ... and of course now he'll probably have me cut off again ... a dishonest T is very damaging ... you're lucky in a way, you know ... in your posts I still hear hope that you and your therapist are going to work things out together ... she's still there for you, you know, she really is, but it's going to need more self-control from you to kind of deal in between times .. if you can talk about that issue directly, if she can tell you she cares still and she doesn't forget about you, if you can work out that you and she have an emotional connection that transcends the times you see her, that she does think about you at times she's not with you, if you can somehow maybe work something out where you believe she carries you in her heart in between visits and talks, I think that would help you tremendously.
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