Posted by antigua on March 4, 2005, at 14:05:39
In reply to Re: Prognosis » Aphrodite, posted by fallsfall on March 1, 2005, at 17:31:47
You even have a plan! I'm really impressed. Give yourself a little more credit fallsfall--the master's in library science sounds great and well thought out.
My pdoc says the same thing, about chances of recurring depression. I don't like his numbers. My odds are way over 100% by now, but I'm NOT going to let that stop me. (My depression hits big time about every 8 years, w/smaller bouts in between; I don't want to live watching the clock, though). My T doesn't agree w/him. If and when I resolve my major issue (csa) I will be better prepared to deal w/the next bout (which always comes back to the csa in one form or another). So, like you, I will be better prepared but I can't predict how it hard the depression will hit me.
I know I'm kind of rambling, but what about living our lives? I can't not do something just because I might get depressed in a few years (talking about me, here).
For me, I'm not ready to go back to work FT yet. I work PT from home and as much as my SO hounds me, I'm not going back until I get through this. Otherwise, I will definitely crash hard(er) and still be facing the same demons. I have to get well first. (I was out of town a while ago and looked in the mirror at the hotel. I had the strangest feeling--where had I been for the last 16 years? I felt like Rip Van Winkle, that when I had kids, the world as I knew it crashed and i've never been the same. I haven't been the same of course, but I see new possibilities before me now!)
Geez, does this make any sense? I just wanted to offer some support.
antigua
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