Posted by Susan47 on March 4, 2005, at 4:29:17
This is really bad. I can feel it. I'm losing it, the last time this happened like this I think was many years ago, I was 25. But this time I've added an addiction. Now I have to get straight. Because I'm becoming severely disturbed, I can feel something shifting and threatening to destroy my tender hold on sanity, I know that sounds overly dramatic and I wish it were but it's true. I'm hearing noises in my sleep, that startle me awake, but the noise is in my head. I wake up frightened, startled, heart pounding and head echoing with the noise, the noise that wasn't there, and it feels like some part of my mind has slipped out of place? It's so hard to describe. But here I am, in the middle of the night, just needing to be held and reassured. How do I hold myself?
poster:Susan47
thread:466321
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