Posted by daisym on February 23, 2005, at 0:55:53
In reply to Re: Making mountains out of mole hills, posted by Speaker on February 22, 2005, at 23:20:35
Thanks for the prayers, Marie. We can use them.
Life is up and down. The illness is background noise most of the time, we live around it. The behaviors are so much harder to cope with. It triggers old feelings of fear and abandonment. I think the timing for all of this is bad, but I know why it is coming up and out now.
Isn't it amazing how we recreate old patterns, relive old scripts? Yes, I think I'm hearing what I expect to hear, not what is really being said. I also think I'm pushing and testing to see if my therapist will get mad or upset with me. I really do feel bratty with him right now -- I want what I want and I don't want to be told "no". I find that I think he should be able to read my mind and pick up on little hints and when he doesn't, I'm destroyed. I KNOW this is old -- it is replaying what I wish and wanted from my mother. I wanted her to see what was happening without me telling her. I wish naming it, would make me stop doing it!
I hope things get better between you and your therapist soon. It shouldn't be this hard, should it?
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