Posted by messadivoce on February 1, 2005, at 1:22:58
In reply to To Tell or Not to Tell New T.(long), posted by 10derHeart on January 31, 2005, at 17:56:25
It's good to see you posting again!! I missed you. I've been wondering how you're making out with new T. Alas, I wish I had something meaningful to say, but I don't. The time you spend with your new T can never recapture the intensity of the bond with your old T, a fact which I'm quickly learning myself.
It's true you've only had 8 sessions with this man. That's not a lot, and maybe it will take some more time before it's the "right" time. But in the end I hope you are able to tell him. You say you don't want your therapy to go in circles...but what if circles are eventually the way out? Maybe you are moving in circles while at the same time moving in a direction....does this make any sense? Two steps forward, one step back. It almost feels like a dance that must go through all the steps to completion.
Anyway, hugs to you, and please know that you're not alone in this struggle. I am still here wading through this as well, and sometimes I wonder if I will ever find my way out. I try to imagine my old T behind me, because he was the one who started me on this journey, and in a way, will be the one from who I draw strength to find my way out again.
Feel free to Babblemail me anytime. I could use someone to talk to as well.
Voce
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