Posted by 10derHeart on February 1, 2005, at 0:16:03
In reply to Re: To Tell or Not to Tell New T.(long), posted by Daisym on January 31, 2005, at 23:09:06
Thanks, Daisy. All good words.
It's so funny, because I think the recapturing thing rings true, BUT, it's really the last thing I want. First, these two Ts are so VERY different in their *feel*, if you will, that it would be impossible anyway. And different is good, I think, because I believe in time, I'll learn different things with this T. because he is so different. But - point was - I want to keep the "old stuff" in the past. It's precious to me and very , very fresh still. Don't want the same "flavor" to sessions with this T. Or do I?
Will really have to ponder, and maybe talk about it, too.It's not so terribly difficult. I just was full of pent up emotion when I posted. I am a "blurter", so it'll come out in a rush when my mind/heart says *go.* On Babble and in therapy.
No, I won't shock him. We've had times already where I cried for 15 straight minutes talking about old T. I came to him brokenhearted and raw about it for weeks. That part is much more stable now. Healing over slowly. He truly seems to totally understand the bond and the attachment. He impressed the he** out of me with that, in fact. He seems pretty much comfortable with all that, but I'm not. Not yet. And I sense a bit of impatience in him about that (old T.) and a whiff of jealousy/resentment..? Just a tiny bit. He's said forcefully it's okay, talk about him any time, cry as much as you need to, tell me any stories you want. But still... ?
So maybe that's all mixed up in why I don't know what to say when about past stuff with old T. I see him Wed. morning. I'll maybe figure out a plan by then. You helped. :-)
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