Posted by mair on January 6, 2005, at 20:03:43
In reply to Re: Wanting to be depressed » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on January 6, 2005, at 8:15:49
Falls - you have such a clear and wonderful way of explaining things. How did it make you feel better (and be better) to accept that he might be right? That's the part I'm not sure I understand.
I've been telling my T for years that maybe I don't want to get better. I reach that conclusion by reasoning that if I did truly want to get better, I'd do things that might make me better - like more regular exercise, or being more vigilant about not allowing myself to come under so much pressure at work, or somehow being better at therapy, or forcing myself to try drugs which might work better than what I take now. She doesn't buy it because she's never been able to come up with any benefits for me. Since I've never really warmed up to getting excited about therapy, she doesn't see endless therapy as a secondary benefit to me.
Maybe I just haven't wanted to go to the painful places I'd probably need to go to make therapy alot more successful. I've never thought of that as a possibility.
Mair
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