Posted by Dinah on December 23, 2004, at 7:11:15
In reply to Would love to hear others' experiences.., posted by Pfinstegg on December 22, 2004, at 18:41:53
My experience is similar to Daisy's. Not quite, but similar. My rational side is sort of ok with going to therapy, but hates to spend the money to go so often and is terrified that I'm going to be seriously hurt when life happens, as it's bound to happen. I'm not really part of his life. So I distrust him for not discouraging the dependence. And there are things about him that I disdain.
My emotional side attached with industrial strength suction cups relatively early in therapy - long before there was any possible sensible reason to attach. Something about the way he *felt*. Not only has my emotional side successfully resisted any attempts to break the connection, but it's also the side that gets frantic and acts very badly at any hint of abandonment.
Oddly enough, the third side of me, the one rarely seen for the past twentyfive years, only showed its head for one session. It was so weird. My daydreams and fantasies started up where they had left off, and I remembered so many things I had forgotten. Anyway, that aspect of me thought my therapist was a boring humorless dullard. So go figure.
I always wonder what on earth it means.
poster:Dinah
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