Posted by Dinah on December 22, 2004, at 7:06:04
In reply to Re: I'm very close to going back to old T » gardenergirl, posted by crushedout on December 22, 2004, at 0:05:11
First of all, I think Rigby is very wise. That *should* be the main focus of your therapy. To learn to get what you want in the real world.
And of course, I remember you weren't very happy struggling with your feelings with your therapist for so long.
But gut wise, I have to say that I understand and would probably do the same thing. Fortunately right now therapy is a useful supportive adjunct to my life, not the center of it. It helps me go out and deal with the other stuff as best I can. But if my therapeutic relationship were ever in jeopardy, I'd do whatever it took at whatever cost to myself and possibly at whatever cost to my life to keep it intact. I would do things that were very harmful to myself to keep it intact. Even if it were already essentially gone in every way that matters, I'd still do everything in my power to cling to the vestiges.
I'm not saying it's right. It's not. I'm not saying I'm not overly attached to my therapist. I am. There are a heck of a lot of good and understandable reasons why I'm so attached that have to do with my root difficulties. I probably should try to work on those, and lessen the attachment.
But I won't.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here. I'm not sure if your situation is as sick and twisted as mine. :) (I smile because on the surface, mine isn't. It appears to be very helpful and stabilizing to me. It's only if termination were in sight that it would become a monster destructive force in my personal landscape.) But I'm saying I *do* understand if you feel you need to go back, for whatever reason - justifiable intellectually or not.
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