Posted by gardenergirl on November 23, 2004, at 0:05:23
In reply to Re: Preverbal pain, includes possible trigger » gardenergirl, posted by Pfinstegg on November 21, 2004, at 21:00:38
> GG, as extremely painful and frightening as that experience was, i tend to look at it in a very positive light- you were able to express some intense suffering from the time before you could speak. That's probably the only way any of us can ever do it, with sobbing and intense feelings of fear. It's happening to me a lot right now- including when I have a massage! The MT's encounter it frequently, and I believe they are trained to respect the feelings, but not to probe into them verbally. At most, the words you would be able to associate with such a powerful experience would be very few and simple- the expression of the feelings themselves is the primary communication- for a baby- isn't it?
Yes, I think this is exactly right. I do think it was good that it happened, and strangely, I am looking forward to doing more work like that. But in the short term I just felt so wiped out.
> I hope it helped to get such powerful feelings out-if not immediately- in the long run. Since I'm experiencing much the same, I do find the experience of feeling that my analyst knows what I'm feeling helps a lot. "Mmm's" are much more comforting than long sentences for that *part*!
Yes, I really really like and respect my T. Today I thanked him for "holding" me emotionally and for being what I called "cautious" in responding to me. What I meant was he was neutral, not leading me towards the idea of memories and not leading me away. He laughed at my word choice of "cautious" because he thought being neutral might be considered as "reckless". What he meant was that if he didn't guide in any direction, than whatever came out would come out. Neither of us could run away from it. He was saying that some T's do run away from it. And in some ways, I did want him to say, "You have nothing to worry about. You don't look like someone who was abused." Of course he can't do that. And I don't really want him to, but I do wish I could understand everything intellecutally.
I guess you get more and more okay with it as it happens more, especially in such as safe place. I'm glad you have a safe place for your emotions, too.
gg
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