Posted by gardenergirl on November 22, 2004, at 23:54:46
In reply to Re: Preverbal pain, includes possible trigger » gardenergirl, posted by daisym on November 21, 2004, at 16:55:51
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> This is one of the reasons I never let anyone touch me!You know, it's never been a problem before. It will be interesting to see how it goes next time. Although I do think I'll tell her more about what was going on with me, and also ask her take on it.
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> I think for whatever reason, your defenses are down enough for you to tap into this pile of sorrow and let it out. I've been researching grief, especially grief held in for a long time. The deep sobbing you spoke of is what makes me think of this.Grief is not a bad word for it. The only other time I can remember doing something like this was outside of therapy. It felt a lot like grieving, not just experiencing, but grieving, which has a sense of movement to it, to me. But I could tie thoughts about my mother and her not being present at times I needed her. Not having an explanation is so much harder.
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> As far as being destroyed after sessions, I think you are going to need to plan for some down time afterwards if you are moving into doing some of this deep work. I have found that I'm exhausted, even if I haven't given into the sobbing. My brain just wants to click off for awhile. Be really careful driving! I find it is helpful to tell my therapist if I have something I have to be together for afterwards, so we can keep things easier.Yeah, there will come a time when I will have to go back to work after sessions, unless I can get a 4 o'clock time. I should ask him to let me know when one opens up.
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> I hope writing it down helped clarify things. Seems to be the day for that.Yeah, it did help. I didn't intend to write so much, but it just kind of flowed out.
Thanks for all of your wisdom, caring, and support. I really appreciate it.
gg
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