Posted by vwoolf on August 25, 2004, at 4:24:02
In reply to Re: Transference Insight » fallsfall, posted by Susan47 on August 24, 2004, at 15:39:44
I wish I could do that. Unfortunately my father died when I was 11, and I believed I’d killed him. I hated him so much that I prayed and prayed for him to die. When he did, after a fall, I thought I would be arrested. So I have carried this for much longer than I should have, as well as huge amounts of guilt. Trouble is, I was always his favorite, the only one in the family he loved (a little bit too much), so I was very confused between wanting to be loved and hating him for what he was doing to me. I think my transference problems with my Pdoc were clearly around this ambivalence.
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