Posted by LG04 on May 26, 2004, at 13:30:41
In reply to Re: Therapy Today....so confused! Trigger » antigua, posted by Aphrodite on May 25, 2004, at 18:15:58
Hi Antigua,
I also was sexually abused as a child and have PTSD. I have been in therapy for years and years but with 6 different therapists due mostly to insurance issues and an overseas move.
I have many little girls inside, each carrying different feelings. I do not have multiple personality disorder but I have very strong voices inside from different ages and with different kinds of feelings. I understand your shock at discovering a voice that you didn't know was there.
I definitely have a self-hating voice. This voice internalized the messages that I got from my abusers, which even if they weren't direct, still "told" me that I must be horrible and hateful and bad if I am being abused because why else would they abuse me?
I have done limited EMDR with my current therapist and it has been very helpful so I intend to do more.
Good luck and please know that you are not alone and that what you are experiencing is "normal" for survivors of sexual abuse.
LG
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