Posted by Aphrodite on May 25, 2004, at 18:15:58
In reply to Therapy Today....so confused! Trigger, posted by antigua on May 25, 2004, at 13:35:27
I hate that you are having to go through this.
I found with my limited experience with EMDR that you have amazing insights you wouldn't have otherwise. Also, it hits you at lightning speed, and it's just like "being there."
I think it makes total sense that there were two of you when you were little. One thing I have recently realized is that no matter what others do to me, I cannot bring myself to feel anger toward them -- I direct that at myself. So, at the time of abuse, I probably did the same thing. I excused my abusers and turned around and poured all of that anger and rage on to my passive young "good" self. The only person I have every truly despised is me, and that, I am sure, was done by my own "evil one" as you put it.
Just knowing and understanding this doesn't change it though, does it?
I'm sorry this has been so painful for you for so long. I hope in time you will learn to be good to yourself.
(((Antigua)))
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