Posted by crushedout on February 18, 2004, at 19:40:56
This is scary. I'm seriously thinking about getting a new T. My current T's crossed some really weird boundaries this week and things have felt very wrong to me. I feel used and abused and just generally beaten up. We may be able to work it out, but I think I'm going to start the conversation off tomorrow with telling her that I'm thinking of getting a new therapist, even though the idea pains me horribly. (She's going to accuse me of trying to manipulate or punish her, I'm afraid, which may be part of what's motivating me, but I think I'm mostly motivated right now by self-preservation.)This is totally scary and overwhelming and depressing. I think I'm going to suffer a lot. I'm afraid I will be too scared and won't be able to hold my ground. I'm afraid I will get flustered and pathetic.
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