Posted by Karen_kay on January 30, 2004, at 21:09:59
In reply to Re: My T turned on me » Dinah, posted by gardenergirl on January 30, 2004, at 14:55:19
I used to SI from the time I was about 15 until about last year. I haven't since then :) I did it as a way to release emotions that I couldn't express. I know that in the family I was raised, I couldn't talk back to my mother for fear she would honestly kill me. So, the only way I could release any type of negative emotion was through SI. I wasn't able to express anger at all. I carried that through part of my adulthood, until I learned that I am allowed to express anger or fear in different ways. I remember a friend told my parents that I was cutting myself and they confronted me and I laughed. After that I found others ways to release emotions that were also SI, but didn't leave marks.
I know that since I started therapy with Bubba, I honestly don't feel the need to SI anymore. And we don't even discuss it at all. I think that just having someone who I can be [somewhat] honest with and express my emotions with, and someone who validates my feelings has made a huge impact on my life. Even since everything with my father has been brought out, I haven't once even thought about SI. It's great!
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