Posted by Racer on January 30, 2004, at 18:20:08
In reply to Re: My T turned on me » Dinah, posted by gardenergirl on January 30, 2004, at 14:55:19
I am not a classic self injury case, by any means, but I do know a bit about what it feels like, from talking with friends over the years. What we always talked about was that whatever we were doing that was self destructive, it was an effort at a sort of self-medication. Cutting to relieve a perceived need for a focus to the pain, shooting up because it felt right to hurt oneself with a needle, in my own case it was starving myself and exercising fairly constantly, but it all came down to a sort of a need to be able to identify pain that had never been validated. Do you see what I'm trying to get at?
All of us had a few things in common, but the most common quality amongst us was the fact that we'd experienced pain we couldn't process and that that pain had not been acknowledged by those around us. Self-starvation, self-injury, IV drug abuse -- these were all attempts to express our pain, and to make the pain we'd repressed visible in some way.
I hope that helps, if you can think of any questions that might help with clarity, please ask them.
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