Posted by Dinah on September 19, 2003, at 12:01:56
Well, to be honest, feeling disconnected from everything. Foggy and apathetic. But I don't feel bad, and I can get my work done. Suggested to my therapist that we reduce the appointment frequency because I just couldn't think of anything to say. Monday we just chit chatted. We could go back to twice a week if I need it later. He said that for someone who felt ok, I looked awful. Very depressed. And maybe he's right. But not depressed in a way that feels awful or interferes with my work.
Anyway, he says that he can think of something to talk about even if I'm at a loss. Because he thinks something is wrong, he doesn't understand what, and he'd like to get to the bottom of it.
But the last two sessions have felt very unsatisfying. Maybe even more than when we get angry. Because I felt totally disconnected. It felt like a total waste of time and money. And it felt bad somehow. Maybe even more bad than when we're angry. I like to feel connected.
What do you guys think? Am I just not needing him right now, or is he right and we need to find out what's going on?
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