Posted by kara lynne on September 14, 2003, at 0:53:14
In reply to Re: fallsfall » kara lynne, posted by fallsfall on September 13, 2003, at 22:49:50
fallsfall,
I just want you to know how much it means to me to sit down at the computer and find a response from you. There are so few people in my life that I can count on. I don't want to make you feel pressured to respond, only for you to know how much it is appreciated. You could say, "Green eggs and ham" and I would be happy--just that you wrote. I see you being so kind to so many people on this board.I think it's very true for me that this is bringing up old pain. I think it's the old pain that got me stuck in that relationship to begin with. It does help to remember--not to delude myself into thinking that it is my ex I am really yearning for. Even though, sitting in the movie theater tonight, all I could think about was resting my head on his shoulder like I used to do with him. He was kind to me at movies.
I am trying to make myself do things anyway. I went to the movie even though I was dog tired and hurting. And I came home and ate the next best thing to ice cream: macaroni and cheese.
I hope I really *do* sound better. Actually that feels relieving to me because I'm feeling so perpetually miserable that I really start to worry about it. Of course if you saw me it might be another story!
Tomorrow I will walk--at least to the corner. You have no idea how much I'd like to be able to come on by and walk your dogs. I find animals to be infinitely healing, and much easier to be with than my own species. And there is a place nearby with really good Peppermint ice cream, with pieces of peppermint candy in it. I hadn't even let myself ponder the notion of whipped cream, hot fudge and nuts...
thank you again ((((fallsfall))))
poster:kara lynne
thread:258785
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