Posted by Mashogr8 on October 11, 2002, at 15:01:33
In reply to cluttering » Mashogr8, posted by MAL on October 10, 2002, at 21:48:51
Mal, Thank you so much for your input. I found the website and I've bookmarked it. At this very moment, I need fly paper to make everything stiack to me so I won't lose it. I found the paper I needed earlier Thank God for small favors.
My stress level is so high I feel like I'm going to pop. I spent thirty minutes on the phone this afternoon tryhing to make appointments with different parents ofr IEP meetings. I had my planning book, a page with available times and phone numbers. Two peole got po'd because I dialed the wrong number. And on one of those wrong numbers, I forgot to mark it wrong and look up the right number so I again got the same lady who was even more po'd. I had the secretary at school dial the number, she got to the right home I must have missdialed the same seven numbers wrong two times. Then I called one family and left a message on their machine but I forgot to mark down the time so when I called the next family I gave them a time too close to the other family which I found out when family #1 called back to confirm. I had tried to write it all down to keep it streaight but it all came out wrong-I am just one stupid shthead. I just want to roll up in a ball under my desk and cry, scream, rant and rave. the meds have ruined my ability to cry for at least twelve years I haven't been able to shed a tear, happy or dad. AT this stage of the game, I'd like wail so loud that the police would be called. I won't but I sure need to.
When I'm talking to people things come out wrong and people laugh like it's no big deal, butthis is happening, way to often, in front of groups of people, just not good, especially for a speech//language therapist.
I keep working late at school and getting nowhere fast and hating myself moree and more.
My only access to a computer at this minute and since Wednesday is at school. Something went wrong with my dial-up at home and I can't get a phone line so I can't even use the computer til Tuesday (thanks to Columbus :-(!!!!!!!
I don't even know how to fix it (the dumber than me laptop.). I tried a couple of things to fix it but none worked. It's raining outside and trouble is raining inside all over me. I have to go to a business dinner paarty tonight with my husband. I sure don't feel like smiling or talking. What good is talking when I'm not making sense.
I'm trying to take enough stuff home with me so I can finish my schedule for kids, write eight IEPs and writeup five evaluations. I am so afraid that I won't bring everthing home that I need - nevermind actually do the work.
God, I'm sorry to run on but it's better than running away, then again, maybe not :-(
A way too unhappy, depressed MA
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