Posted by Deneb on October 22, 2006, at 17:17:49
In reply to Re: I don't get pro ana ***SA, Ana trigger*****, posted by ElaineM on October 17, 2006, at 19:00:44
> Deneb : I'm just speaking from personal experience here. I don't claim to be a scientific authority, and my opinion can be one of many. This is just stuff I've absorbed through my own treatments.
Thank-you for sharing Elaine. I understand a little better now. I just recently experienced the effects of a lack of glucose on the brain. I went on a very low carb ketogenic diet for 5 days and I started to feel some brain fog...not so good for studying.
A lot of the people on that site were extremely depressed. I can see how they can not care about living or dying. I realize now that Ana is a very serious illness and is definitely NOT a way to lose weight. I also realize that a person cannot *become* anorexic, either they are or they aren't.
> Personally, I think sometimes that pro-ana sites are used by people as a way to find a community to be a part of.
I see that too now. It must be awfully lonely being anorexic and having no one understand you.
> ((((((Deneb)))))) even if it were true, as your mom says, that you need to lose 10lbs, then you really wouldn't be "really fat" right now.
I know I'm not obese or technically overweight right now, but I really do have a lot of fat. When I'm thin I will know it and I will maintain my weight.
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> I've done eating disorder re-feeding treatments three times (with the longest one lasting 6months) and they always made everybody (even if you were only 5 lbs under your highest "lowest healthy weight") go on "weight gain" calorie levels to reach a BMI of 19.I imagine re-feedings are not fun. I understand in some cases they do re-feedings against one's will?
> Deneb, what's going on? Why is weight becoming so important to you?
I dunno. I just want to look better.
> Someone with body image issues may answer, "because I'm fat", but what comes after that. What's the "...and..." part for you?
I feel like if I can control my eating and make it to 95 pounds it will be an accomplishment for me and right now I really need some accomplishments.
(it's always there you know)
> The fact that you are surfing pro-ana sites suggests that you are *not* being healthy about your desire to lose weight, even though you think your goal healthy. Can you see that? I always get terribly concerned when I hear someone looking down the same path that I regret I chose so much. It was one of those "I wish I could turn back time", life-altering choices.I sort of got kicked off the site so it doesn't matter anymore. The people there don't want me going down the same path they went through. They said they wouldn't wish an ED on their worst enemy.
Thanks Elaine. Are you better now?
Deneb*
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