Posted by Quintal on December 10, 2006, at 18:53:18 [reposted on December 10, 2006, at 23:43:16 | original URL]
In reply to Re: just a quick update » Quintal, posted by liliths on December 10, 2006, at 16:32:50
>The hardest thing about this ordeal was having my rights violated, losing more control over my own life... the experience itself was also very shaming
I can imagine it is - I feel angry just hearing about what you're going through. We depressives etc are so often told to pull ourselves up by the bootstraps and get back into work, but what incentive is there when we're treated like this?
>I'm not feeling very optimistic about my future at the moment
That's to be expected given your circumstances, but I hope you don't let the fight go out of you - there are plenty of us here on PB who will give you the support (and weapons) you need to keep up the good battle.
>btw, I did order that sample pack - I figure what the hell :)
Well you should have one very relaxing and enjoyable evening trying them out if nothing else.
>to be honest, I don't want to do any of it... I'm going to have to push myself on this. And that includes trying to find other meds.
Ah, but you must keep trying now when things seem bleak - it's a sure-fire way to earn solid confidence when you triumph and things brighten up again. It'll seem like plain sailing from then on and you'll be able to look back at yourself and know you're capable of riding out the storm. Future challenges will seem less intimidating because of this.
>I hope I am functional if and when I do get a license. I won't pretend I am still the person I was when I passed my boards and first applied. I've lost a lot of momentum, confidence and belief in my ability to actually have a worthwhile life again... and getting that was a hard one battle to begin with. It took giving up a lot of other things I haven't been able to regain in myself...
This can be just a temporary setback if you make it that way, and I'm guessing much of this negative self-perception will change when you're doing the job you trained to do.
>oh my, I really dislike whining like this - so sorry!
>I know self-pity can be awfully unattractive as well as frustrating for other peopleI think we'll let you off with that for now ;-) - There are loads of people here rooting for you and I think I speak for most when I say it's very rewarding to see someone we've encouraged succeed at reaching their goals life.
Keep us posted.
Q
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