Posted by Deneb on May 6, 2006, at 23:45:29
((((((((((Estella))))))))))))
I think I understand what you are saying about people, that people don't really care sometimes. Sometimes they just pretend to care.
I'm probably sometimes that way too. I mean, there is only so much I can care about a stranger. I know I write about myself and my problems a lot. I don't offer as much support as others here. I acknowledge these things. I can only be me. I'm trying to be a more supportive person. I will admit that it does take effort.
I just want to say that I really like you Estella. I like you whether you're being supportive or lashing out. I like you just the way you are, and that's the truth. I don't have to suspend my disbelief with you.
I know there are probably people here who write caring things to me and who really wouldn't miss me too much if I were to disappear. I like to pretend that all who write they care actually do care.
I really don't know if Dr. Bob gives a darn about us, but I'm just going to force myself to think that he cares because it makes me happy.
I'm choosing to live in some sort of fastasyland because it makes me happy.
I hope you can find some happiness, with or without this place.
I've missed you. I feel torn between convincing you to stay and encouraging you to get away because I really don't know if this place is helpful or harmful to you...it could very well be the latter.
Deneb* (who is very much in her own little world)
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thread:640823
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