thanks P.
no i have been having this trouble for months, i think all of it started (as usual) the first part of november. and to be honest, if my pdoc would have listened to me and approached my sleep issues first instead of messing with the rest ofmy meds, i dont think i'd be in this place now.
however about a month ago we had a cousin die, suicide. and i think that really tipped the barrel... he could do it, he had kids, he was bipolar...
the connections and parallels were terribly hard to ignore. i did manage to go to the funeral and i am very glad i did. i think it helped a bit with some closure. But it is still in the forefront of my mind. As his method was same as a coworker/student i lost several years ago...
i also lost a family friend last december, she just dropped it was an brain aneurysm, she survived through thanksgiving, but soon after passed. she was a year younger than my husband. she had a child not to much older than my oldest.
and a coupld months before that, a lady in my church group passed away. though with that it was her second bout with cancer. she had one child in one of my childs class.
yes, and one of my husbands uncles died a few months ago as well. though we hadnt seen him in years, i still remember his kindness to me well.
So over all, i have had too many funerals as of late.
which, i think i need to stop talking about this as it is triggering me quite badly.
thnx
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