Posted by ChicagoKat on December 1, 2012, at 1:10:23
In reply to Re: About. Ready. To. Give. Up. Warning:depressing, posted by jono_in_adelaide on November 30, 2012, at 21:44:09
I truly appreciate your concern Jono, but I absolutely am not going inpt. ever again. I honestly would rather die than do that.
I tried an outpt program at a different hospital since my beloved hospital I've done OP at before is not covered by my new insurance. The program was truly, utterly terrible. So I asked my pdoc for advice, if he knew any other places that were better. He did tell me that I am not the first person who has complained about the place I tried. But he said that another option I have is really good. In fact, he rather bashfully told me that he had started the program there in 1981 and ran it for quite a while. So I am going to look into doing OP there.
I can't do Parnate. It is not covered by my insurance, and surprisingly it is very expensive to buy out of pocket; it costs 130 bucks a month
Clomipramine may be something to try. With my track record I honestly don't think it will work,, but it can't hurt to try. I will ask my pdoc about it.
Thanks Jono. Your concern means a lot. But I promise I will not give up. I was just sooooo frustrated and down when I first posted. I've survived episodes of feeling even worse. I'm a survivor and I refuse to give up. I have too much to live for.
KatIve got a really bad disease
Its got me begging on my hands and knees
So take me to emergency
Cause somethin seems to be missing
Somebody take the pain away
Its like an ulcer bleeding in my brain
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