Posted by ChicagoKat on November 30, 2012, at 20:01:21
Focalin has been more tolerable than Ritalin. But it is still a form of Ritalin. I was off any form of Ritalin a few weeks ago when I was on Nardil plus Nortriptyline. I thought it would be a great holiday for the Ritalin if I ever started it again. Today my morning dose worked so-so, but my noon and late afternoon doses had absolutely no effect on me.
It seems that RItalin, no matter what form I take it in, is giving up on me. And it is/was my last chance. If I can build up tolerance to it that quickly, it's just a short matter of time until it gives up on me completely. Then what?
I will live in my bed. I will only get up to use the washroom. I will force myself to take a shower once or maybe twice a week. I will lie in my bed and pray that I achieve a state of catatonia. Or a coma. My husband will eventually divorce me. I will have to try to live with one of my parents. That will not go well. I will eventually spiral down until I become homeless and addicted to crack or meth or something. And then it won't be long til I die.
Ive got a really bad disease
Its got me begging on my hands and knees
So take me to emergency
Cause somethin seems to be missing
Somebody take the pain away
Its like an ulcer bleeding in my brain
poster:ChicagoKat
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