Posted by ChicagoKat on December 1, 2012, at 1:00:49
In reply to Re: About. Ready. To. Give. Up. Warning:depressing, posted by rjlockhart37 on November 30, 2012, at 20:57:37
thanks rj for your input. I'm sorry to read that you also have moments of intense pain.
I promise I won't give up, it's just that sometimes I get so frustrated and sad and scared that I think about it, though I know I never would do it. I have too much to live for.
Like my couple of hours a day when the planets are all properly aligned and my Ritalin/Focalin works.
The only other thing that works is to have a huge cry and let it all out. Sometimes I sob SO loudly and for so long, I'm afraid the neighbors will hear and call the police or something.
And I have found a way to kinda help get my mind off of it...I play my music loud. I mean really, really loud. When I do that, the music takes over and my brain stops it's constant worrying and negative thoughts. So that helps.
Thanks again for your encouragement rj. And I am sorry that you feel lots of pain sometimes too. You hang in there and I will too.
KatIve got a really bad disease
Its got me begging on my hands and knees
So take me to emergency
Cause somethin seems to be missing
Somebody take the pain away
Its like an ulcer bleeding in my brain
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