Kat....don't think about those things...i know, even the thought of waking up makes tired again...don't let the sorrow get into the way of how you think. Couple days I had a my moment where I think collpase of nothing in achievement...i was in my room and mourned bad over my unaccomplished desires, it was like a 100 knives inside me turning in the emotional part of me. Looking a high school prom filled with pink and white ballons and happy people and romance.. my long lost desire that I never went to...i never went to prom...i did in the 10grade but it wasnt a memorable moment. I thought of that...and it killed me, i just got under pillow and let it out, and it was a long time because it kept pushing into my thoughts over again. But I realized after being in this sorrow helpless feelings, you have to know to get it back together...and as much as I wanted someone to come and save me, and give me all my dreams I wanted...it just doesnt happen.
its like the feeling of seeing precious china plates smashed all over the floor, I mean it would make their owner mourn, but you have to clean it up, and move on and get some more.
Try to put the Focalin under your tongue, that's what I do with my zyprexa, the nuvigil is too nasty...for me, but try it. Have coffee, or maybe a couple glasses a wine when you need it, think of something that makes you motivated and strong, a tv show, anything.
hold in there kat...
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